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Daily thought/discussion post for 09/08/16

Alone No More

Acloholism was a lonely business, even though we were surrounded by people who loved us. But when our self-will had driven everybody away and our isolation became complete, we commenced to play the big shot in cheap barrooms. Failing even in this, we had to fare forth alone on the street to depend upon the charity of passers-by.

We were trying to find emotional security either by dominating or by being depending upon others. Even when our fortunes had not totally ebbed, we nevertheless found ourselves alone in the world. We still vainly tried to be secure by some unhealthy sort of domination or dependence.

For those of us who were like that, A.A. has a very special meaning. In this Fellowship we begin to learn right relations with people who understand us; we don't have to be alone any more.

As Bill Sees It - p252 - Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions - p116+117 (AA)

"We Asked His Protection"

We asked His protection and care with complete abandon.

Alcoholics Anonymous - p59 - from Daily Reflections (AA)
Commentary Here


We need not lose faith when we become rebellious.

Commentary: Many of us have lived our entire lives in revolt. Our initial response to any type of direction is often negative. Automatic rejection of authority seems to be a troubling character defect for many [addicts].

A thorough self-examination can show us how we react to the world around us. We can ask ourselves if our rebellion against people, places, and institutions is justified. If we keep writing long enough, we can usually get past what others did and uncover our own part in our affairs. We find that what others did to us was not as important as how we responded to the situations we found ourselves in.

Regular inventory allows us to examine the patterns in our reactions to life and see if we are prone to chronic rebelliousness. Sometimes we will find that, while we may usually go along with what is suggested to us rather than risk rejection, we secretly harbor resentments against authority. If left to themselves, these resentments can lead us away from our program of recovery.

The inventory process allows us to uncover, evaluate, and alter our rebellious patterns. We can't change the world by taking an inventory, but we can change the way we react to it.

Just For Today: I want freedom from the turmoil of rebelliousness. Before I act, I will inventory myself and think about my true values.

Just For Today - September 8th (NA)

Carrying The Message

I am feeling much better now, and I thank God for AA and my good friends. I have learned how to accept their help.

Grapevine - Queens, N.Y., February 1971 (AA)

Atma's Thoughts

Does anyone but me read the commentary on the Daily Reflections and such? These were picked by people who have been through AA a while and their experiences finding a new way to live, to pass down to others coming in as the "best" of A.A. and its help and why they believe in this passage so much, and so many of them sound so sad describing how they once where and where they had been before this. The fact that simple ideas like love and compassion and forgiveness are so foreign to their whole existence, no matter how long they've been around, is a disgusting fact of our species and one we should be working on lessening instead of prolonging like we seem to be with our constant conflicts over whatever, inconsequential or not.

I was lucky enough to not hit the immense bottom that most did in order to finally arrive at the doors of help and actually stay within them, thank my gods, but at the same time I feel a lot of the same lack of empathy from others and lack of self-esteem from a genuine place that they do. They're not why I drank but they're common traits in people who become alcoholic. It's depressing in many ways.

They're the ones I'm glad this stuff exists for, even more so than myself, because they're the ones who finally got someone to listen, maybe after months, and sometimes maybe after decades. I'm surprised at how many stories I hear where that person is still here telling it to me and they didn't end it in suicide and I could have therefore never met them to hear this story.

It really says a lot in those little bits, sometimes more than what they're commenting on. This little bit saved someone, and now maybe it can save me and you, too, from whatever it is chasing us, even if we only can sometimes take it one day at a time.


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